and here i am again,

the drums in my music are drowning out the vocals.
the dial is turned to full blast because i need to drown you out
but though i am deafened
i still feel the same familiar ringing pain
because i know you're screaming inside of me to get out,
you're tearing through my head to tell it to
yank my heart away from me.

the gashes you left me
that i thought that had finally closed for good
are wide open once again,
raw wounds leaving behind pools of crimson to stain
your bleached white bones that i know
are only figments of my imagination, (just like us)
but bones that i somehow i still can't avoid.

and here i am again,
ripping out pieces of myself,
because i'm drowning in memories of you,
suffocating because i see you everywhere
when you're nowhere to be found.