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Who Am I?Smile
Laugh
Play
That's what I fake every day

Cry
Scream
Fight
That's what I do every night

Mean
Selfish
Cruel
That's how I act at school

Worthless
Brat
Loam
That's what I'm called at home

Bipolar
Violent
Stone
That's what I am on my own

Who am I?

So FarawayI long to hold you tight
For you to bathe with me in your arms
As I cry
As you listen to those words I actually say
Can you hear this melody from far away?
In the twinkling night sky
I need you
I don't want to let go of you
Or the love for you
Of how much I care for you
But, I wish you could see

In the starry night
You're not far away
Holding me once again
To your warm chest
Where I feel so safe

Watch me as I walk
You'll be not far behind
Look as you see
Who I've come to be now
How I've changed
You may not think I'm perfect
But, I wish I could see in your eyes I'm perfect
The little girl you use to once hold
Where ha

If OnlyIf only
I could maybe
just maybe
start over again
I wonder
if I would
do better
If only
you were with me
maybe
I would
feel
something
more
If only
this sky was
full of stars
then maybe
my wish
would come true
If only
you were with me
maybe
my scars wouldn't raw again.
If only.

Are you blind?Are you blind to my misery,
Or do you choose not to look?
I want to share my story,
But you close me like a book.

I'm screaming as I cry,
But you refuse to hear.
Look away as I die,
Ignore each little tear.

Am I not loud enough?
Is that why you ignore my scream?
My life is tough,
Help me escape this bad dream.

I scream a bit higher.
Please, I need your help!
My circumstances are dire.
I'm losing myself.

But you do not help me,
And I've decided to give up.
Maybe then you'll see.
Ha! That's just my luck.

LonelyA shy little girl
all on her own
starting a new life
yet still alone:

Things were going
to be different
things were going
to change:

But she still
sits in her dorm
no more than
a two word exchange:

Food always tastes better
when with friends
sometimes she sits
there and pretends:

A safe haven to learn
she thought she'd call home
has turned into a hell
with no one to know:

She though she
could be visible
everyone here
could see:

but things never
are what they seem
and she will never
have a happy ending:--

tICK TiCKI'm one of you,
Cut me,
And I'll bleed.
Slice through my skin,
You'll see.
I cry tears,
Just the same.
You hurt me,
Without even knowing my name.
Stop my heart,
I swear I'll die.
To see the truth,
Look in my eyes.
Don't ever stop to think,
How your words affect me.

*blink**blink*
You've missed it.
All your words were shit.
They just keep coming and coming,
Never stop.
I smashed the windows,
And broke the clocks.

So tick,
Tick,
Tick,
Tick,
Tick,

Tick.

B

O

O
M

1Go on,
Go.
I won't be your freak show.
It's not "funny,"
It's not "cool."
I'm just a girl,
Who didn't know you were so cruel.
I made a mistake,
I'm sorry to say.
I paid for my mistake,
Very dearly today.
You took who I was,
And you tore up my heart.
I'm broken and bent,
I'm falling apart.
The roof of my home,
Has just caved in.
It looks like you did it.
I guess you win

The Madness WithinRide away.
Fly away.
Run away.
Run.
But I can't.
I'm stuck.
I can't
Escape.
I can't run away.
They will always catch up.
Steps.
Over and over.
Going nowhere.
I am stuck on repeat.
I'm stuck.
Stuck.
Tick.
Tick tick.
Tock.
I can't escape.
Time.
I can't outrun the clock.

Lo, How She Lie, Still and BrokenI'm trying so hard to get better,
So hard to be strong.
I'm trying so hard to keep smiling,
So hard to go on.
But I'm getting tired,
This happiness drains me.
The walls are closing in,
It's getting hard to breath.
My conciousness,
Goes in and out.
The room goes black and white.
I can't take much more of this,
I think I've lost my sight.

Moral of the story:

You can't do it all,
Because no matter what you say or do,
Even the mighty fall.

Dear ClaireDear Claire,
I'm sick of the happiness,
And the smiles.

I'm sick of your laughter;
It's been going on for a while.

Where are the tears?
I miss the despair.

I like you depressed,
Because that's when you're Claire.

I think you should change,
Because I said so.

You're not happy,
You and I both know.

So start crying,
And slit your wrists.

Yes, yes,
That pain you've missed.

We're only here for you;
Don't you feel good now?

Yes, you do.
We can tell you how.

Just listen.
Listen, Claire.

C'mon, you can do it.
Give in to the despair.

We do it for you.
Love,
The Voices.

InjuredIf I follow under your wing
Could you sheild it all away?
I cannot take it anymore
I forbid this pain to stay

Rejoicing in your existence
With praises of soothing song
You allow yourself to be my guide
And make me feel like I belong

Blinded by your kindness
And distracted by my attention
You relinquished your free will
And fell for my deception

Weakened in your current state
I can clearly see the cause
I had wasted your soul and vow
And left you hanging in my jaws

Crying deeply for the truth
Of tears born from a lie
How strange is it that
Honesty is kept within the eye

CutsJust a tiny one. That's all I need

Reach for the blade

It's the only thing that helps

Take the pain away.

A little deeper now. Just this once

More and more

You crave it so

Farther, longer. I need it now

You're feeling weaker now

You're ready to leave yet.

Just one more

Congratulations

Now you're dead

NeverW're always talking about the furture and the things we're going to do,
About doing crazy things and all the trouble we'll get into.

Of all the wierd things that'll happen to us,
Of all the memories that will never get left in the dust.

But it almost hurst to think that those times will never come
Almost, but all this has left me numb.

All the things I'll never have done,
And I'll never wake to see the sun.

All the loving people I'll never meet,
I'll never taste that love so sweet.

All the things I'll never have seen,
And I'll never get the chance to be me.

It was more than I could take,
But is this really an escape?

To me, it's not th

Letting GoWhen everything that could possibly be said
Has been spoken,
Our mouths have smiled, our eyes have cried,
And hearts have been broken,
What is there left to do
But just walk away
When all that's left of something so complex
Is simply naught but pain?
Life goes on.
We grow and change,
But something deep within remains,
So how can it be
That these times have gone
When once upon a time you were the one?
But then did you ever really forsee
An ending other than this?
Maybe in another life
We could've watched a sunset
Under a tree in each other's arms
Sharing our first kiss.
Maybe it could once have been that way
Or maybe it w

Lonely CriesDon't look at me
When I fall apart
I don't want you
To hear my cries
I will always push away
The ones who say they care
It's just sorrow and shame
They care only about themselves
It's just their morality
That makes them pretend

They never look in my eyes
Too afraid of what they might see
Of the empty stare
That won't go away
Scared of the darkness
Of the soulless face
And the hint of a murder
That is always there

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I'm Okay

by ~RoseScarlet, Jan 31, 2013, 5:48:54 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

My tears are flowing onto your heart

But you don't have a heart

So you can't feel them

Of course I'm okay.

Of course, because I smile every minute you face me

Of course, because you never see me cry

or frown

or whimper

or scream

But I see you

You say I'm the happiest person in the world

Because I smile more than you do

You say you are jealous

Because I am happier than you are

So much happier

Because I'm okay

And while you cry for the thing you don't have

I try to comfort you

But the thing that I had you already took from me

But I'm always okay

Willing to be your punching bag

The backup disk

The tissue you use and throw away and forget about.

Maybe your cold froze over your heart.

Because I'm always okay.

I'm Okayby ~RoseScarlet

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

*** has taken everything away from me.

But of course I'm okay.
Even if *** knew I wasn't *** wouldn't care. Or maybe *** already knows.

~Jambajuicecandy Feb 4, 2013 Student General Artist

Wow...this is stunning! The emotion in it is amazing!

~RoseScarlet Feb 4, 2013 Student Writer

OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH

~Jambajuicecandy Feb 4, 2013 Student General Artist

No problem!

~XxDmitriaxX Feb 1, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Your poems are always so deep and awesome. Great job

~RoseScarlet Feb 1, 2013 Student Writer

Thank you, and thanks for the fav

~XxDmitriaxX Feb 1, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

You're welcome

~RoseScarlet Feb 1, 2013 Student Writer

lol you spelled "you're" right
people barely do that anymore xD

~XxDmitriaxX Feb 1, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

lol I'm unique

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~1bookfish Jan 31, 2013 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

This is beautiful, I really hope you feel better soon

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